yay!! going to see heather tomorrow!

Tomorrow I am getting on a train to go on a much needed vacation to see Heather, I can’t think of anyone else I would rather see.  Ah although the last 2 days have been.. hell to put it bluntly I am excited to go see her, I need a hug from a friend right now, and Heather is the perfect hugger. I can’t wait to see how big my practically nephew Tobin has gotten. I bet he’s huge. When I get back the chunkky munky will have a new racecar bedroom set all set up. He’s so excited about it, and so am I. Life is going to be rough, for a little while. But if I’m not a strong person, what am I? Right? I’ve never been on an Amtrak before hmm. The only train I’ve been on is the El and my first ride on that was just under 4 months ago! haha. What a sheltered person I have been, as far as seeing the world goes.

This is where my handy little quote is coming in handy.

“Life is not about getting through the storm,
it’s about learning to dance in the rain”

With the rough storms of life, comes new life. New experiences, and well needed lessons.
For every bad thing that happens, something good happens, no matter how small.
I will be ok, I promise. It will all be ok, someday, and I will look back and either laugh or cry.

                  Love always,
The impossibly optimistic Danielle.

I am not religious..

I am not religious, but so help me God, Jesus, Mary and Peter. For I am going to douse this woman in gasoline, light a match, and watch her glow.

Tiresome week..

So i haven’t posted anything since the chunnky munky has been home. That’s because a whole mess of things happened, and the chunkky munky’s mom wound up staying here all week. Yeah I wont even get into that. Actually it really wasnt that bad, and I spent the majority of the week with chunkky munky anyways, so im happy.

Ill just leave the ex bit out. It doesnt matter. But she does officially live in Chicago now, well, an hour outside of Chicago. The burbs dont count!

It has been a week full of painting and trips to the park, and to see the lake and bubble drinks and so so much fun!

My mind is really tired right now, so Ill probably miss alot of what we did, but here is a quick list of things I can think of at the moment.

Made rainbows, and shamrock garlands and “Happy St Pattys Day” Garland and cards and green milkshakes for St Pattys Day, because it is after all my favorite holiday of the year. I also made for the first time [and the first time ive had it in 3 years] Corned Beef and Cabbage, we had an entire outside day on St Pattys so it didnt turn out right, I started it too late and it just didnt come out right that night. Although the next day after being in the crockpot all night, it was fantastic. Thursday it was however turned into very very  delicious home made Corned Beef & Hash. [Very delicious I remind you, my favorite thing I've made the entire time I've been here!] Then today we worked on the letter A all day long, coloring and painting, we made an apple out of recycled applesauce cups, and a small stick. A Crumbled paper-leaf apple tree. An airplane I drew up and Chunkky Munky colored then we cut it out and glued it to blue painted paper and then glued cotton balls on for clouds! Oh also an “Aa” page with random “A” letter things on it i drew such as Apple, Anchor, Alligator, and Ant which he then painted. I think we are going to start making an Alphabet book and work on a new letter every couple of days and add a page to it, and just fill the entire day with fun crafts. I really do need a good camera i tried taking a photo with my webcam of our fun stuff, and it just doesn’t come out right. Oh how I want to show you all the fun stuff we do. I swear the first post I do after I get a new camera is going to be 3 pages of craft photos! Like at this very moment I am giving my poor poked fingers a rest. [1. Yes I know I'm typing and that makes no sense, 2. Ive been sewing basically my whole life, you would think I wouldnt poke myself anymore!]  Earlier I cut the sleeve off of an old vibrant green wool sweater Ive had for years that i never wore and made a re-usable cloth coffee cup sleeve. Yay eco-friendly! No more paper ones! [When I can remember to grab it that is.. ha] Anyways, I am now using the rest of the sweater, well most of it, to make a little bright green wool backpack for the chunkky munky, he loves wearing backpacks, and its been very fun, plus it is his favorite color, how could I not? I’m nearly done with it, but my eyes are about closed now, I can feel the heaviness of my eyelids, which isn’t saying much for a 20 year old woman on a friday night, at 11pm! Although it is saying alot for a 20 year old girl who got up at 7 o clock this morning and had been running around chasing a nearly 3 year old, and cleaning all day until 9 o clock , Not to mention making Quiche for dinner last minute, Quiche with home made pie crust is nothing something you do last minute, its something that takes a while, especially when there are two sauteed and one blanched veggie involved..  Anyways! I’m nearly dont with this backpack and I’m super excited about it.

I just hadn’t updated in a while and figured I mineswell. Oh I’ve been surfing blogs a little recently and have found some truley amazing crafts. I think the coffee cup sleeve is the only one I’ve done that wasnt my idea thusfar though. I just like looking at them and thinking how cool they are, I have so so many things planned for when Chunkky Munky is older! He is just abit young for most of the things right now. Or maybe when my neice and nephew come to visit sometime I can do them with them. Who knows?

I’ve begun to think that I’m so good at this kinda stuff if I don’t wind up being a Stay-At-Home mom or a Housewife I wont be able to do anything else.. haha.
Maybe a kindergarten teacher? Me.. a teacher? Hahaha. No one wants their kid taught by a teacher with arm tattoos, do they? Oh silly me.

Anywho I’m tired so I’m going to quit rambling now and finish this backpack then maybe go sit on the couch and watch television for a bit… [I'm waiting on the lovely to get home, i still have just under 2 or so until he gets back.. *sigh*]

comments, suggestions, and questions always, as always, welcome.

Excitment like Electricity…

my lovely went to go pick up chunkky munky.

While i do have to deal with his mom for a short period of time, im super excited for him to be home. Tomorrow morning is going to come early. But I am so excited to see his little smiling face. Im going to wrap him in my arms, and never let him go ^-^ little bugger boy. Im so excited for st patty’s day too. His fave color is green, and i have some cuteness in mind to do. Like green eggs and ham for breakfast =o i know riight? [especially since we missed Dr Suess'  Bday on the 2nd.] and lots of other fun fun activities. I can feel the excitment coming from the smile on my face like electricity. Oh yay ^-^

 

Oh yeah, no worries, our heater is back up and fully functioning and after celebrations yesterday afternoon we went to the grocery store and stocked our kitchen with lots of goodies. And under the sink with cleaning supplies, YAY! =] ever tried to clean without them? so much harder.. lol Ive been cleaning all day, i smell like lemon cleaner and Lysol wipes O.o

Random thought..

If a man can tell his [soon to be ex] wife and mother of his son, that he is happy with someone else.

 

He must really mean it, yeah?

I don’t think I have a single thing to worry about.

 

 

Other than that our heater has decided to stop working last night, oh bother.
It’s been freezing all day, which has made my work-ways come to a hault.
It’s not that I don’t WANT to pick up our home. [although without Chunkky Munky here, it really doesnt need it] It is just far too freezing, if i move from under this blanket and away from this space heater my poor little frozen piggies yell at me to seat myself right back down and cover back up you crazy woman!

So I have indeed been sitting here alot of today. Feeling like a bum, I wish it weren’t so cold out, and then this would not matter anyways.

 

P.s. Nothing makes a girl feel more loved than falling asleep in her lovely’s arms to stay warm. I kind of like it honestly, gives an excuse to be close! =] Now all we need is hot cocoa to top it off! And maybe something to make for dinner, oh dear my cupboards have gone empty. TGTomorrowIF. =]

Note to self..

Note to self:

when trying to distract a nearly 3 year old the phrase “whoa, whats that?” and pointing in an off direction at nothing, does not work for your benefit.
it results in 10 minutes of “whats that?” “Danni, whats that?” “whats that..?” even after explaining it was a trick and there is nothing there except a cemetary.. [yes i know creepy there is a cemetary located directly, sharing a fence literally with the park at the end of the road. I also thought it was not right.. but who am i to argue with? the city of Chicago? HA]

Now im sitting here listening to Kate Nash in a nearly dark house at nearly 10pm , alone. My lovely has driven the ex and the Chunkky munky to the hotel they are staying at tonight before heading off to Florida. Oh how I am going to miss him. He wasn’t even gone 10 minutes and I called heather anf left her like a 5 minute message about how I missed him. I mean it’s only a week. But what am I suppossed to do without him for a WEEK? a whole week.. Him leaving was worse this time then it has been before. 
It’s ok though we left today with a bang =] Started with eggs and bacon for breakfast and playing all day, bath time. TWO trips to the park, a walk, coloring, lots of reading, tons of tickling and sweets. [WHAT?! hes going with his mom anyways ]  Just showering him with everything he wanted [within reason] to make him happy. The last thing i wanted to see was him sad today.. My lovely while sad about the chunkky munky leaving is excited about us having a weekend to ourselves, he quote is going to “rock my world” lmao. Im excited to sleep in and have the weekend to ourselves. I know we wont do much, but it will be nice. I can’t help but think about it sucking without the chunkky munky though, while it will be nice, a whole week is alot of no chunkky munky time. *sigh* alone time, I dont even really like it anymore.. lol.

anyways now im just rambling.

My elephant is a fly.

so i showered for like 2 hours.. cause its relaxing. and as i was getting a cup of tea a little while ago, and i heard chunnky munky’s little voice in the office, it dawned on me.

What is wrong with ME? The entire reason the ex is here, the entire reason shes coming to chicago, the entire reason her and i are nice to each other, and her and my lovely talk so much, the entire reason we have all been brought together on this very weekend, was because of the little guy. We are being silly adults, concerned about whos doing what, whos doing who, ect; When really we should all come together on the one thing we all want. For the little chunkky munky to know we love him and care. For him to be comfortable. Instead of argueing about stupid things and making things uncomfortable for everyone involved, we should be putting that aside and just make the effort to show him hes a lucky little boy with 3 people that care about him so much, and love him so much. So much that we do invest all of these feelings into this. He loves us all and we all love him. That is why we are here. So why are we being self centered? Why are we focusing on who is our number two instead of realising we all have the same number one, the same person on the top of the list. The little guy we all want the best for. Forget what is going on between her and I and just have fun with him. Hes almost 3, he doesnt care about all the stuff we’re argueing about. So why should we? What does it matter if were stuck in the same place and there is always a giant elephant in the room? There is also always a little guy in the room who makes the elephant seem so tiny. My elephant is a fly when he’s around. So forget it. Forget the last one. Everything is worth it. As frustrating as it gets, he’s always worth it. Plus we all know the theme songs, and what’s funnier than 3 adults and a little guy sitting in a living room belting out the “Little Einsteins” theme song at 7 o clock at night? Not much..

 

We are such silly socks. ;]

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I have the perfect life.

About 2pm yesterday I’m standing at the back door, laiden in jammie pants, hoodie, ponytail, and boots. Obviously hadn’t done anything to myself since rolling out of bed. Laundry basket full of dirty laundry balanced on my hip staring at my lovely standing in the middle of the dirty kitchen I hadn’t worked my way to yet. “Hey sexy” he chimes in. Which is nothing out of the ordinary, we pick on each other regularly. I roll my eyes, and say “oh yes, so sexy right now” his response being “you are sexier right now, then I’ve seen in a while” to which I wonder aloud “really?!?” 

To my pleasure I get the best answer ever:
” Really, you doing laundry, completely comfortable just relaxing, after letting me sleep in this morning, I find that really sexy”
BEST MAN EVER. I doubtlessly love him.

And then we set up the fishtank, which is HUGE, but awesome. The chunkky munky had a blast exploring it after he awoke from his nap. Which made setting it up even more worth it. I love it when he explores, and is astonished by simple things like the fish-less fishtank.[we have to wait for it to balance out before adding fish] It makes you just grin so wide, and you can’t help it at all. His moments when he’s laughing and smiling make all the hard times, totally worth it. I love my life so much, I am so happy taking care of him everyday, from the moment he wakes up until the moment he goes to bed. Making sure our home is clean for my lovely when he comes home, and cooking for the pair of them, NOTHING makes me happier. Nothing makes me feel more needed, appreciated, wanted. I love it, un-explainably. Just completely content. Frustrated at times, yes. Just like everyone else on the face of the earth. But I now have a reason for doing things, I now have someone who needs me, looks up to me, wants me around… that is the most comforting amazing feeling in all the world. I am loved, and it’s awesome. Lol.

I found a quote today that i liked alot for those not-so-fun days though, it seems like it could help:
“Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass…
it’s about learning how to dance in the rain.”-Unknown

and here are some pictures, from the same day as the last post, but still cute =]
and chunkky munky is asleep right now, so we can’t take new ones lol.

I LOVE his smile. Nothing compares to it.

Love always, Danielle.

Who says you can’t pick your friends nose?

because im pretty sure you can.. lol